Who Am I

Hair mess in jumbles
As I begin to mumble
Sounds to words to sentences sentences to communication
As we form a relation
Don’t look in my eyes
I don’t want to know you could speak lies
Trust in you I do
For I love you
Blind by truth im scared
I hope to god you don’t dare to cross
As I look at past scares down my body
That reflect my past pain
Memories that will never leave my brain
As my blood would circle and circle the drain
Words symbols of communication a way of relations can not express how low I feel
How ill and grimy and sick of myself as black tar feels my lungs suffocating
On my own taint ambitions
Throwing it all away
I don’t want any of my achievements at the end of the day
I just want to go about six feet under from where I lay
Day to day
Fuck me and this world
As I wish not to live in the same world as her
Memories of what we were
Haunt me enough
Thinking I was tough
But I cant handle this any more
I just want to walk out the door
World to world
I don’t belong