Who shouldi choose?

why am i hurting?
why do i feel this way
hes like a brother , but i love him in a diffrent way
does he know that when he hugs me i dont want him to let go?
but then i talk to the other
and my heart aches as his eyes twinkle down at me
but niether could feel the same
no one will ever love me that way.
but then i look jnto their eyes
and i feel diffrent inside
i feel loved
i feel like im worth something
but then they look away
and i return to the pain