The thoughts

The thoughts

I loved the thought of us
I saw our names in lights flashing
But didn’t see the car crashing

I loved the thought of us
Kisses in the hallways, nights in your car
Floating through school with hands clasped tightly

And now the thought of us is
what fills my nightmares
It grates against my mind like claws
Hoping to find purchase

I hate the thought of us
The thought that brings the whispers back
Theirs and mine

I hope you hear them too
Tiny faces screaming
Give me a chance
Save me

I hope you see them babe
The little images of us
Behind your eyelids, on walls, in the mirror

The unborn that could have been
That would have been
Ours

Now they are distant memories

Shadows of thoughts that once were

I hope you will remember

THEM