"In Front of Me"
I can't get the image out of my head
Of you crying there upon my floor.
I want to stop the shaking of your hands
But I can't be there for you like I was before.
I can't leave the picture far behind me
Of that tortured look I saw in your eyes.
No matter what I'm doing, I always remember
How you begged and pleaded and I couldn't reply.
I can't stop the scene from replaying;
Like a broken record, we're stuck on repeat.
Every moment stands out in sharp contrast
As you crumbled from a reality you couldn't defeat.
I can't seem to let it got this time--
Such a moment that tortures you and I.
Your lingering sadness is just a reminder
That nothing will change even if we tried.
I can't rewrite what happened here,
Though I dream I had made a different end.
No matter what I'm doing, I see you there,
And I watch you fall apart again.
I can't erase the memory I'm always seeing now
And I'm not strong enough to look away.
Every moment that I'll walk through your shadow
I'll be wishing I'd found a reason to make you stay.
I know I can't let myself forget this time
The way I made everything turn from white to black.
While watching the world around you fall apart,
I was searching for a way to call you back.
I can't focus now when your heart is breaking
Because that image of you is dancing in front of my eyes.
But I can't let this happen to you anymore;
We've already said goodbye too many times.
Of you crying there upon my floor.
I want to stop the shaking of your hands
But I can't be there for you like I was before.
I can't leave the picture far behind me
Of that tortured look I saw in your eyes.
No matter what I'm doing, I always remember
How you begged and pleaded and I couldn't reply.
I can't stop the scene from replaying;
Like a broken record, we're stuck on repeat.
Every moment stands out in sharp contrast
As you crumbled from a reality you couldn't defeat.
I can't seem to let it got this time--
Such a moment that tortures you and I.
Your lingering sadness is just a reminder
That nothing will change even if we tried.
I can't rewrite what happened here,
Though I dream I had made a different end.
No matter what I'm doing, I see you there,
And I watch you fall apart again.
I can't erase the memory I'm always seeing now
And I'm not strong enough to look away.
Every moment that I'll walk through your shadow
I'll be wishing I'd found a reason to make you stay.
I know I can't let myself forget this time
The way I made everything turn from white to black.
While watching the world around you fall apart,
I was searching for a way to call you back.
I can't focus now when your heart is breaking
Because that image of you is dancing in front of my eyes.
But I can't let this happen to you anymore;
We've already said goodbye too many times.
♠ ♠ ♠
I'm so sorry. (You know who you are.) If I could be there for you, I would. If I could change my heart, my mind and who I was for you, I would. But I can't. Not being able to do that even though I want(ed) to breaks my heart along with yours--and part of me wishes I hadn't had to push you away, but you can't stay with someone who can't give you what you need.