My Own Words

How ridiculous can be my mind?
Is my heart the one who play the tricks?
Maybe both have decided to make me feel this way.

Deception can be as painful as your name
Your name which is stuck on my brain
Cause I can pretend I don´t care about you
But I can´t find a place without you in myself.

What brought us to this way?
What was wrong when we laughed and played?
Is this the time I used to dream with?
Or is it the lie you wanna be?

Don´t misunderstand this
Cause between you and me
You haven´t won nor I haven´t lost
So stop lying to yourself
Pretending you´re so happy with her
Be honest just for a moment
And be the one you used to be

What can I say?
I´m not heartbroken
You´re not such a fake guy
I´m not such an honest girl.

But I can look at my words
As they draw themselves in paper
As they are settled in my heart
While they finish the thing in my head.

At least I have my words
And a happy satisfied me
I can smile and that´s not fake
I can love and be free on my way
The way I’ll always be.