Eating Disorder

I lie awake restless,
With thoughts of slumber on my brain.
The pit of my stomach grumbles,
Don't know how much longer I can withstain.

Telling myself just another week longer,
Then I'll go back to eating without any bother.
One more week passes but I refuse to give in,
Continuing to starve because I want to be thin.

The number on the scale is never low enough,
So I begin to binge & then throw up.
Months have passed, my body unchanged,
But people around me are starting to act strange.

I wake up to the sounds of voices,
Talking about my recent choices.
They make their way to my door,
Dressed in white coats almost touching the floor.

It only took me a second to realize who they were,
As I bolt to the entrance of my bathroom door.
I make my way to the toilet to purge one last time,
Knowing I'll be punished for my victimless crimes.

I'll be taken away & forced to eat,
Gaining weight uncontrollably.
My freedom of choices taken away,
Within a place I will forever stay.