Anorexic Lives

As long as I'm thin I’ll be happy.
No one would notice if I died.
Once I used to feel pretty.
Rather starve than have fat on me.
Emergency room again.
Xanax is to help me stop being depressed.
I’m trying to be happy again.
Coming consumed by the disorder that owns me.

Losing the fight with my ED.
I’m scarring more parts of myself.
Very close to death.
Everyone says stop, but I keep going.
Society has ruined me and I’m not here anymore.