My Beautiful May

I walk alone
in a cold October
filled with the longing for May
to feel your warmth wrapped around me
after the harsh, cold December and the rainy sadness of April.
Nothing if perfection, but you are so close
The flowers bloom when you are present
and life feels peaceful with even the thought of you here.
Your sunshine hides the darkness
Which I know is inside of you,
for as it can be sunny in winter,
it can also storm in spring.
But I am not afraid of the storm,
and I would stand by you forever,
never wanting June to come.
Although I have experienced your beauty,
I never really knew you
how I long to know you.
Deep inside I know you'll never come
but how I wish you'd prove me wrong
and save me from the darkness,
my beautiful May.