Is There a Heaven or Will It Forever be My Hell?

People dying helplessly,
sadness finally pouring in.
Fear emanates from the pores of my skin
while I watch the deaths around me.

Everyone screaming for me to run
but my feet fail me and I fall.
I am so scared,is there someone to call?
I don't remember the last time I saw the sun.

My friends lie down,death sinking in.
My enemies stand tall,facing me.
I curl in the shadows of my own despair,
How could life be so unfair?

I am left in the darkness,
left to die in this fire.
But I cannot die,even if it's my desire.
Because when the day comes
I will rise from hell
and will kick you in the face so damn well.

I just can't run away,
just accept my fate.
Knowing that in my life
I can't repair things,too late.

This world is left to die
with you all alone,no one by your side.
I will lay down and wait,
for when the water comes and the tides take me away.

Is there a heaven or am I stuck in hell?
In this goddamn place I learn to know so well.
Where love is nothing but a stupid feeling
and something that is so short-lived and fleeting.

Welcome to my hell,
what do you see?
This is my life,
the life that surrounds me.

How is your heaven?
I really want to see.
It sounds so pretty,
but that just can't be.

After we die,there's another hell?
I don't think it's worse than the one where I dwell.
I know that we can't face this day,
without having thoughts of running away.

There's nowhere to run,
nowhere to hide.
Pray for angels,
to come and save us.

So,tell me,
should I fight
or should I wait until I see the light?

Everyone expects for me to hide,
to run away and always cry.
But I'm never what anyone expected
and I'm far from what they suspected.