I Am Victorious.

Do you know who i am?
Let me refresh your memory..

I used to be that girl.
That girl no one liked.
The one people couldn't be around.
The weird one.
The one you would point and laugh at.
The Freak.
The Whore
The Burn out
The Good-For-Nothing
I used to be the girl that people made fun of all the time.
I used to be that girl you see walking down the hall crying.
I used to be that girl you see walking home in the rain.
I used to be that girl that looked dirty because she didn't have nice clothes, or i wore the same clothes for a few days straight
I used to be that girl you would whisper to your friends about.
I used to be that "emo" chick
I used to be that girl you called a whore because you saw her with a bunch of guys.
I used to be that girl you called fat because she cant fit into a size three.
I used to be that weird girl who sat and read books instead of talking to people.
I used to be that girl you knew that sat in the back of the classroom.
I used to be the girl teachers would even make fun of
I used to be that girl that would smile, even when you said mean things to me.
Tried to tear me down
Shut me out
Lock me away.
I used to be the girl that went home and cried every day.
I used to be that girl that contemplated suicide every day.
I used to be that girl that sat with a bottle of pills in front of her.
I used to be that girl that rewrote her suicide note over and over and over again.
I used to be that girl who came home to nothing but an empty house.
I used to be that girl you knew that cried for no apparent reason.
I used to be that girl you knew that cut herself.
I used to be that girl that wondered if anyone would care if she disappeared.
I used to be that girl about to run away and never turn back.
I used to be the girl you said would amount to nothing.

You know what i used to be before all that?
I used to be happy.
I used to be carefree.
I used to smile every day
I used to think things would always get better
I used to be optimistic and look for the good in people.

You know what I am now?
Paranoid.
I'm the girl that doesn't trust many people.
I'm the girl that has to look over her shoulder every day.
I'm the girl that is scared to go to school.
I'm the girl that worries every day if she will mess up.
I'm the girl that has permanent memories that haunt her.
I'm the girl that is scared to tell you things
I'm the girl that pushes you away when you get too close, because I dont want to be hurt again.

You know what else I am?
Strong.
Independent.
I'm the girl with the scars that remind her the past is real, as a reminder of what not to go back to.
I'm the girl you see in the hallway smiling and laughing because i had a good day
I'm the girl with friends that are like family.
I'm the girl in that cute relationship
I'm the girl that is happy with herself.
I'm the girl that no longer looks in a mirror and thinks "why cant i be pretty" because i know i'm beautiful.
I'm the girl that doesn't have to look at a scale anymore because she knows shes not fat.
I'm the social butterfly.
I'm the prom queen.
I'm the valedictorian.
I'm the cheerleader.
I'm the collage graduate.
I'm the head executive of a big company.
I'm the millionaire.

I'm everything you said I wouldn't be.
I am Victorious!