How Can I Make Her Understand?

Why cant she understand,
that even if it was the only thing i do,
i'd give up my dreams,
to be her life long friend,
even if it meant that we'd only be friends,
that we'd live close together,
and live great lives day by day,
i'd sacrafice my life goals,
every single day,
but if only she knew,
how she means more,
than life itself to me,
it leaves my heart sore,
and you really cant,
tally this score,
of how many times,
and how many more,
times i hurt myself,
within my mind,
berating myself,
tearing away at my insides,
hours upon hours,
of nothing but thoughts,
but nothing describes,
just how distraught,
this pattern leaves me,
as i try to describe to her,
just how much she means to me,
and what i want to mean to her.