Earthquake

I don't know why
It seems I've been pushing everyone away
When all I really want
Is to be held close

But I can feel myself slipping
Into an abyss so deep
I don't know if rescue is possible.

Feeling out of place
Outcast
Outdated
And overcome

My mind is overloaded
And my head so fragile.

I want to scream
And shout,
Tear out my lungs with something worthwhile
But nothing I think would ever register
The scales
Or make the smallest quake
Across the smooth
Tranquil pond.

I've never felt alone
In such a busy place
And every hand on my shoulder
Tells of a stranger's touch
Though I'm the one who's becoming unrecognizable.

I'm the one falling so slow
Screaming so loud
Crying inside
While standing so stoically.

I just can't explain
How I feel so empty
And everything seems so petty
But I'm scared to death
Of this darkness I feel
And how nobody has made a move
To offer a light.