Believing Me

Believing Me
Everyone is so happy,
Why can't that be me?
Why is it so hard,
For everyone to see?
I smile in the crowds,
Like everyone else.
But if you look closely,
I'm screaming for help.
By day I'm happy,
Like no pain exists.
But at home at night,
I slit my wrists.
I tell you I'm not hungry,
That I already ate.
But really,
I think I'm overweight.
At night I pray,
Up to God above.
That someday soon,
I'll find some love.
Cause I need someone,
Right by my side.
Someone to stay,
Who won't run and hide.
But I guess,
That no one will see.
Because it's just so easy,
To believe me.