My Wish

My hope is that you see me as a wonderful person before you see me like a piece of meat to chew on and then spit out of your mouth.

I do not want to dress like a queen to attract you. I want my personality, my soul to do that. That way you do not care what I have and how I look outside.

I do not hope to be a waste of your time. Neither do I hope you remember me only as old entertainment.

And when we're no longer together, when it occurs to you, I want you to think of me as a happy moment, a memory so sweet that it makes you want me back in your life.

Because I want you to see me as a person of great value and importance. Not just another score, or just another victory.

If I have come to matter to you, I want you to see me as someone you really love, someone you want as part your life who also loves and cares for you.

And if I die or walk out of your life, I would hope it brings you nostalgia. Not to intentionally bring you pain but to let you know that this love was real.