Reason to Believe
I've given up a while back; there's no rhyme or reason left to say.
There's no good bone in my body, though I try every day:
to be a good person, to repent for my sins.
There's no real explanation on why I can't be one with God,
to achieve a relationship, to open my heart to Him.
I just think it's because I have no reason to believe.
Prayers haven't been said in a long time,
but maybe that's just it. I've committed a crime.
People around me are slowly dying.
What kind of God would leave me crying?
I ache and wish I was dead.
But in my head, I know that's not the solution.
Maybe one time, I'll look and see
that I've finally found a reason to believe.
There's no good bone in my body, though I try every day:
to be a good person, to repent for my sins.
There's no real explanation on why I can't be one with God,
to achieve a relationship, to open my heart to Him.
I just think it's because I have no reason to believe.
Prayers haven't been said in a long time,
but maybe that's just it. I've committed a crime.
People around me are slowly dying.
What kind of God would leave me crying?
I ache and wish I was dead.
But in my head, I know that's not the solution.
Maybe one time, I'll look and see
that I've finally found a reason to believe.
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This is super personal because I absolutely do not feel a closeness to any faith or religion, even though I try to be good and help myself find something - anything - to fall back on. I'm not trying to say that I can go out and do bad shit and just because I believe in God or whatever that it's okay. What I'm trying to say is that I want to believe in something that can help purge me of all the things that I've done. Maybe not even that...Just to help me. Period.