Supressed Confession

I despise him
The shadow that hangs over my past
Because of him I’m damaged goods
I try basking in the light
But the shadows, my memories
Come rushing back.
I can’t breathe
I cry for my mother in my sleep
That night so long ago, I cried for her then
Instead of her, he came
His cruel look and smirk full of lust
I was too young to comprehend it
I just wanted mom
She never came for me
She wasn’t at home
He came closer
I was too naïve and trusting
He told me to shut the hell up
Suddenly my mouth was full and I began to choke
I couldn’t speak or cry out
My throat really hurt
In and out his hips would sway
What could I do?
I was just a child
Innocent to the evils of men
Only now do I realize the horror of it
The situation and the pain that it comes with
Everywhere I go, his evil residue follows
I’m trapped, lost and disgusted with myself
I’m protective and guarded
Only now do people know
The shit that I’ve been through
Part of me has let it go
I now have a new favorite phrase
Everyone knows Ms. Karma’s a bitch
I’m sure he’s figured it out
One day I’ll win with my shield and sword in hand
Next time that fucker won’t get away.