Goodbye

I wondered what it's like inside your brain
I wondered if your mind was ever sane
I saw your pictures on my homepage everyday
I laughed at all the crazy things you'd say

I listened when you broke down for days
I listened when you got sent away
I tried to put myself into your shoes
I searched the past for any hidden clues

And as you walk towards the train stop
Your heart set on the top
I wish I could scream out.
And as you rip the blade across your skin
I really wish the pain you're in
Could happen to anyone but you.

When you swallowed those pills and you said goodbye
I couldn't explain how much I almost died
The sobbing mess laid across my bed
As my head replayed all the things you said
The confirmation should've come as a shock
But I knew you couldn't take another knock
I don't know how long I didn't move