Lost In Translation

I want to hate you.
I want to sit here and say I don't care about you,
I wish I could loathe you,
the way I loathe the day I let this all fall apart.

I want to blame you for everything,
but I'm only lying to myself.

I shouldn't of put myself on the line,
I shouldn't of invested so much time and energy into something,
something that was only a fantasy,
and an escape from my mind.

The worst part is I don't know if i wish this never happened,
or if I'm dying for it all to come back.