Suicide Note

I know I haven't thought this through
And I know you're standing there thinking
"Why?"
I was trying to figure that out as well
Why was it me?
I guess I won't know the real answer
Seeing as I found my own

All I can really say is that I'm sorry
I've been a terrible daughter,
Friend,
Sister,
Cousin,
Niece,
Classmate.
I just couldn't handle reality anymore
I was tired of making my fantasy lands,
Making up stories
Just to make things seem better
I wanted to go away to my own fantasy land for good
And by the time you read this,
I'm already there.

I'm sorry for the trouble I caused
And I'm sorry for leaving behind my mess
I hope you don't care too much,
Though I doubt you care at all
Just know that I did this for everyone's benefit,
Not just my own.
I was just to terrible to be around,
And I couldn't stand it.

I know I haven't thought this through
And I know you're standing there thinking
"Why?"
I'm still trying to figure that out as well.