"Twist the Knife"

My tears were like poison,
As were the words you said to me last night.
Every inch of me had already tensed,
But I knew that it was a losing fight.
The way I cried hurts more now,
Because I'm ashamed that you affect me so.
After all this time, I can't believe,
You still ask me for a reason to let us go.
I lied to you last night, but it wasn't easy,
And I choked on the words I didn't want to say.
Every consequence of what I did wrong
Twists the knife a little further every day.
Rub it in, if it makes you feel better,
Though know you break apart what I have left.
I know we're searching for a way to move forward,
But the blame, the guilt, the constant heartache--
Are the memories that won't let me forget.
Time hurts the more you ask me to find a way;
There are no paths where we can walk together.
Each phrase, harsh word, the unspoken hatred,
All the frustration you deal with day by day,
Shadow a future where this might get better.
Your sadness, your pain, your unyielding feelings,
I know that I'm the cause of it all.
I'll take the blame, no matter what it does,
Because I never meant to let you fall.