Crying is weakness

what is this feeling i feel?
the feeling of pain, so surreal
Everywhere I think there is pain,
and I only leave a stain.
Nothing pleasant, nothing kind,
I don't like me and its time.

You don't understand me, eve if your
the closest i have to a friend.
I won't give you satisfaction,
I'm tired of trying to see.

Don't you see? I hate me.
Its time to end, I just
want to go back.
Back to a time I don't
remember yet.

I can't cry no more, its useless to me.
It doesn't make me strong, it just makes
me weak. When I can't take it anymore
I cry and its weak. No wonder why my
life is so painful and bleak.

In order for someone to be saved,
there has to be someone worth saving.
Guess they forgot about me, I think
its time to stop and think and remember,
there is nothing out there for me.