If You See Me Drawing

If you see me drawing
I am having a bad day.
I draw birds
to make myself forget I can't fly.
(I draw for the same reason others drink: to forget).

If you see me staring into space
I am having a 'low' day.
If you see me smoking,
I am having a 'high' day.
(If you see either of these, I forgot to take my Lith.)

If you see my hands start to shake,
congratulate me.
It means that, just for today,
I am ignoring my addictions.
(Please don't offer me a drink or a smoke.)

I am far easier to read than most
if only because I hate explaining myself
to people who judge
or stare with confounded expressions.
So if you see me,
never ask me what's wrong
because if you cared enough
you'd already know.