Dead End

It's the end,
I've reached a dead end,
Nowhere to go from here,
Left soaked in my own tears,

Remorse,
I could have done so much better,
I could have changed myself,
Made the world a better place,

But no,
I look back,
Dispite how hard it is,
To look at my reflections of the past,

I laughed, cried, hurt, loved, and lost,
But nothing could have prepared me,
For this single moment,
Where I'm standing at deaths door,

Waiting to enter the abyss,
Of eternal sadness,
Pain and regret,
Where my thoughts fester inside me,

I'm so sorry mom, dad,
Chris,
Friends and lovers,
Past and present,

I couldn't do it any longer,
I'm dying from the pain,
I'm hurting from this sorrow,
I'm taking it and throwing it all away,

I love you friends,
Tootsie,
You made my heart swell,
But it just was never enough,

I want to die,
I choose this path alone,
My decision and my ideology,
This world isn't worth it,

My thoughts have been burdening this,
I have become so sick, twisted, and sadistic,
Mad at the world,
For my own damn faults,

I'm wrong, scared, hurt, weak, and a fruit,
I gave my life to empty promises,
And dreams that couldn't be met,
I have taken so much without giving a thing,

I am a leech and a menace,
I deserve worse then death,
But as I said I am weak,
This is my final way out of here,
I can only go up when I fall down.