I Can't Believe All the Thoughts in My Head

I can't believe the thoughts in my head
they are all telling me to shut down
beginning anew and breaking the process
it's not going to end
Thinking about the hard times
it doesn't stop just there
praying it doesn't happen too fast
or that you are going to leave too soon
coming home late
asking me questions I don't know the answer to
my hope just shatters in the air
i sit here waiting until my heart interferes
the problem isn't within
it's not too clear
telling myself listen to the pounding in your chest
instead of the nonsense upstairs
write them down on the surface
don't spread them throughout your temple
being brought down,
sunken to the bottom of the oceanless pit that is your body.
Take the chance to swim back up
the light is calling you
tracking your very exsistance
checking your pulse
breathing in and out
open your eyes
look at the world in a different perspective
start again.