Coward

Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a coward. Not because I am afraid of fighting my inner monster, or being afraid of what lies ahead.

No...

I wish I wasn't such a coward and could finally man up, and die already.

Some say that I'm brave for not being able to commit suicide.

I just wish, for one second, that all I would need...one.little.second.

And the pills were down. The chair fell down. The razor cut. I jumped.

I wish I wasn't such a coward.