I'd Give Anything (To Give Up)

I'd give anything to give up.
I'd sell my soul to the highest bidder -
I'd break my own heart and stomp on it.
I'd forget who I really am in an instant.
I'd give anything to give up.

I had dreams, hopes, and some other things.
I had a life I planned to live.
I had a family I loved, and friends who cared.
I had a home; my heart said so.
I had a lot that I bargained for.

I'd give anything to give up.

There was a time when I wanted to live.
When I'd cry myself to sleep begging
and pleading for the will to survive.
When I begged some unknown entity
to send me a reason to keep living.

I'd give anything to give up.

I'd learn to stop my heart on a whim.
I'd kill a man if I could take his place.
I'd set sail and never return
I'd forgive every persons mistake
I'd stand on the tallest building and scream -

I'd give anything to give up.

There was a moment a few years back,
When I stared at the nothingness
And pleaded with my mind to stop -
Stop moving so fast, and let me think!
Back then, I wanted so many things.

I'd give anything to give up.

All the fighting to survive; it lasted.
It's still here, echoing through my brain.
Reminds me that not long ago,
I would have given anything to not give in.
It's like being broken.

I'd give anything to give up.

It's pounding at an invisible door,
Live or die, live or die, live or die!
Speak or cry, speak or cry, speak or cry!
Child, don't change your mind.
Give anything, anything at all.

I'd give anything to give up.

Back then, I survived.
Its a moment with results estranged.
I wanted to live once upon a time...
That time has gone and flown bye.
Now...?

I'd give anything to give up.