To My Everything

I probably shouldn't say this
You’ll probably think me insane
But it has to be said
The words need to pass my lips
You need to hear what I have to say
No interruptions

I love you.

Yes, crazy I know
You treat me like shit
Only to say it is I who makes your life hell
You make me cry
You break my heart
But at the end of the day,
No matter how hard I try,
I still love you.

My friends think me a fool
And they are beyond right.

You have cheated
You have lied
But I overlook it all.
I let you have your way
So afraid am I that you will leave me again

I should know better
And truthfully I do.

I know that things will never be the same
I’m well aware of the fact that you hate me
You say it’s because I don’t talk to you
But what am I to say to someone who I can’t trust

I have to judge my words
Or risk angering you
But you don’t understand this
You don’t see that you are the reason I act this way.
You can’t comprehend the damage you have caused.
I think it is because you simply do not wish to see.

You are too afraid to open your eyes
Too afraid to look
You are a coward.
A fool.

And I am done with you.
You think I should be hurt by your leaving
But all I feel is a sense of freedom,
Redemption.

Enjoy your life.
I know I will be enjoying my life devoid of you.

From, Your Nothing