Illusion

no body knows how bad it hurts
hiding the emotions just to slide on a pseudo smile
laughing and playing along with them
as she walks by
pretending i don't notice her presence
but i do
the subtle lift of the lips as she breaths in
the noticeable decrease of bounce in her step
the lonely drop of her eyes as she pretends not to see me
no amount of joy can catch up to the agony i hide inside
she left me yet we stayed together
each moment wanting something more then an illusion
where have the good times gone
before she was my queen and i her knight
but now i long for her in the dead of night
this misfit still lingering for the past
yet the queen just walks by showing her feelings
maybe that's the illusion