A Realization of Our Relationship

I guess I just don't care
Maybe I've lost that ability
I can feel some emotion
But right now I can't identify it
I feel pity definitely, pity
I feel….
I want to cry
I want to rage
I want to scream
But those emotions
They're just not there
When did I become so... removed
Like the words I'm saying
They're not penetrating
Me, him, this wall
But... is it a wall?
Honestly, I don't know if there is one
Maybe I broke it; went to the other side and just... didn't care
Didn't care… that's not right
Maybe I just didn't see what I wanted, needed
Maybe there was nothing and I was just fighting myself
I guess... I've stopped fighting myself