What Are You Thinking?

“What are you thinking?”

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how beautiful your eyes are,
How easily I was sinking,
Deeper and deeper into them,
While they watched mine.

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how wonderful it would be,
If we could still be together in 10 years’ time.
If we could be the friends who took 4 months to get together,
And 4 thousand millenniums’ to break up.

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how perfect it would be to wake up in your arms,
How perfect it would be if your eyes were the first eyes I saw every morning,
If your voice was the first voice I heard every morning,
And your arms were the first to hug me every morning.

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how far from your perfect girl I was,
I wonder how she looked,
How she spoke,
How she acted.

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how you thought of me,
If you thought I had any annoying habits,
If there was anything I didn’t do, that you wish I did,
If there anything about me you’d like to change.

What I should’ve said was,
I was thinking how scary the thought of losing you was.
Never knowing when, where, or why it might happen.
Knowing that while you were perfect for me,
I was never good enough for you.

“What are you thinking?”
What I actually said was,
“Nothing much, just about you.”