Overdose

Sometimes I overdose
on hopelessness
and hatred
and the lurking evil fears that slither and slink into my soul.
Sometimes I fall
into that deep blackness that sucks
every
hint
of
realness
from my heart and mind.
Sometimes I scream so loudly that nothing else is left
but the red
of pain
and rage.
Sometimes I am less than human.
But not tonight.
Not tonight.