I wonder

People say I'm beautiful
But I don't see it
If I was beautiful
You'd think I'd have someone
Someone to hold
Someone to kiss
Someone to be myself with

If I was beautiful you'd think
You'd think I wouldn't have to try so hard
So hard to get attention
So hard to get someone
Someone to talk to
Someone to hang out with
Someone look at me

I feel like a ghost
Seeing girls with their boys
While I'm here with nothing
Nothing but air and a withering heart
A heart wondering if it will ever be loved
If it will ever get the chance to love

I feel like I'm just the wind blowing around people
I'm there but not really
I'm invisible
Invisible to the human eye
Guys don't want to be with me
Girls don't want to be my friend

What's left to live for
That question always floats around my head
I'd never end it
But some days I wish it would
So I wouldn't have to sit here and wonder
Wonder what it's like to feel loved
Wonder what it's like to be held
Wonder what it's like to have someone
Wonder what it's like to not wonder