Looking for Love

I use to want to fall in love
I use to dream of the girl evernight
I tried so hard to find the one
That i made some choices that werent right.

I cheated and i played and learned to say
exactly what she wanted to hear.
I was good at getting close and pulling away
And leaving a trail of broken hearts in my wake.

I wish i learned sooner what i was doing was hurting me
more then i would of ever understood.

Hello my name is Jonathan.
How are you doing today :D.
I like your eyes they sparkle.
Hello? Dont you have something to say?

Oh yeah im all alone too
so i understand what your going through.
Sure we can hang out ill buy you lunch
If only they all understood what i was going to do.

I lied and i stole.
I cheated and I laughed
At the pain that i created
Some how worsened there past

I would get close and pull out
and remind them of there exes
and how what i did was the same
and they would cry and beg

Hello my names Jonathan.
And im a monster
All i have ever done was cause pain
And dreams that will always haunt her.

Her and her friend and her cousin.
all would feel the pain of what i did to them
I hope to never be forgiven
for my dark past comes to light tonight

tonight i end what i did and apoligize to all
ill pull the blade and pull the knife
ill Beg for what i did and expect nothing
but the light to stop and the ending to my life..

So to all that i hurt
Im sorry for having to run.
But all i was doing
was looking for the one