How Sad...

Drastic to make a change I try and try my best at giving my all towards changing my life though i get absolutely nothing done. Is it because I am not meant to accomplish anything in this small span of time I have been given? How ironic then that if I am to be doing nothing then my life is valued worthless. I should just roll up and die like my fellow bug brethren in the field. Though that would be an insult to those small bugs that roll on the ground for they actually do have a purpose and that is to provide for themselves and they do so successfully. While I a lowly human have no ability to provide for myself and I am surviving while contributing not even to myself or anyone. I take it upon myself to loath my very own existence and make my time on this plain one of sorrow...