That moment in a day..

Relaying how I made it here
Wondering where I learnt to fear
Never before wearing a smile
To hide the torment of a child
I admit to being rather strange
And not maintaining what is sane
Now I feel so empty inside
Won’t you please turn out the lights
Voices stir, making remarks
My own is silent and in the dark
I want to fight, creating havoc
And yet it all seems rather tragic
I do not wish for solitude
But somehow I’m left in my room
My heart sinks with every word
As I read my private curse
Do you believe in something more
Than what I write behind closed doors
I wanted to say that I’m not me
We all have our own insecurities
For now I’m lost and traveling
Attempting to find my sanity