I Love(d) You

I don't know why,

I ever trusted you.

You've made me cry,

only true because I cared too much.

You used me for pure entertainment,

I used you to feel loved.

You said I lied,

but if I did? then what did you do?

This Is partially my fault,

you're mainly to blame.

I have to say, that I am ashamed,

for believing we were better,

but it was just for your fun,

and now my head is just fucked.

I sit and think, while flushing my tears,

they all disappear the more I blink.

I closed my eyes, and seen you there.

I saw you standing, alone with her.

I still love you, I really do.

Why did it take this,

a blade and my wrist,

a note with my writing, my words,

For you to know?