Again

Again and again
My hope descends
Now and then
I see the end

An open pack
At my left hand
I keep going back
At despair's command

Self confidence
Suffice to say
Destroys my consciousness
There goes my day

Your heart is black
No color and bland
I'm taken aback
Head buried in sand

I wish to amend
When you say when
My heart I send
Again and again