I'm Just Chasing Shadows

I remember the night you told me,
You've liked me for years,
And you smirked,
And tilted your head down sheepishly,

I smiled,
And was at a loss for words,
A rush of warm engulfed me,
And I put my arm around you,

We were caught up in each other for a moment,
Until I decided to put my arm at my side,
And I walked away,
And talked to people who never gave a damn about me,

We met again,
And alcohol influenced,
One of the worst mistakes of my life,
And I regret every moment,

I had no time to think,
It happened so fast,
In the blink of an eye,
And I couldn't control myself,

Next thing I know,
Were dizzy and revved up on adrenaline,
You were on top of me naked,
Begging to take my shirt off,

I couldn't speak right,
And the world was spinning,
I was feeling sick,
And I was wondering what the hell I was doing,

I left her,
Naked, alone, and with her thoughts,
I gave no phone call,
And I ignored her in the halls,

What the hell is wrong with me,
Now I'm chasing her shadow,
And begging for her back,
But do I even deserve it,

Shes an angel,
And I'm a sinner,
She gave me her heart and her purity,
I took them and broke them both,

I don't know what I was thinking,
Maybe I was scared I'd get hurt again,
Or I was confused cause it happened so fast,
Maybe I was just a coward,

I feel so much sorrow,
And I wish I had you back,
I may not deserve it,
But I will never walk away again,

You are perfection in a human body,
Carved from diamonds,
And priceless to me,
And more radiant then the sun,

You are more to me then anything,
You will never know,
Fear of rejection will break me,
Turn me to dust,

I would walk around the earth,
And I would give you everything I have,
So we could be together,
And I could tell you everything I've wanted to for so long,

That your breath-takingly beautiful,
That your presence makes me jittery,
That your eyes and smile can hyponotize me,
Your better then any drug I've ever taken,

The only thing I can't do,
Is hold a conversation with you,
My mind runs a mile a second,
And I stutter trying not to fuck up,

I shake and sweat,
And try and think of things to say,
Always blurting out stupid things,
And hitting myself later,

I wish things were different,
And we stayed together,
I wish I could say your my girlfriend,
And that I could hold you deep in my arms,

And I could feel weightless again,
Like when we kissed,
I wish we could start over,
Press restart,

But once again,
I'm just chasing shadows,
And I have no hope left in me,
I won't ever stop trying,
I can't lose you again.