Day One

It shouldn't feel like day one
When it's been several weeks
I just want to be done
With feeling so damn weak

I shouldn't want to harm myself
Or pull the knife on you
I do know that I need help
Just not what I should do

Please help me to understand
Why I hurt so bad
I'm tired of looking at my hand
Wishing to hold yours like I had

Don't look at me that way again
I just can't take it any more
Close your eyes and turn and then
*Bang* wait til I hit the floor

So I don't have to deal with this
And you can just be done
Maybe then I'll find happiness
When it stops feeling like day one