I Don't Know

Everything running through my head at once
What do I do, what do I feel?
I'm not sure if I can even feel anymore.

I try to cry, but I can't.
I swear I can't help it
I swear I'm trying.

But I can't fucking do anything
In my pathetic life
Not even something
As simple as crying.

I don't even what to write anymore
In fear of being cliche and amateur
I'm not even good at anything anymore.

There's always someone somewhere
That will always do it better
Than I can ever hope.

What do I have left?
A deteriorating voice and broken words
That no one will ever hear?

This perpetual, pent up anger
That will never my lips
Because I'm too much of a coward?

What's the use anymore?
I don't even know my name anymore.
I don't even know who I am anymore.

I'm the most lost I've ever been in my life.
I'm stuck in this bottomless pit
And I don't see myself getting out anytime soon.

I've given up.