Sheets

I've been feeling cold with this constant breeze
in between my bed sheets.
I have this aching in my bones
like my heart's throwing a new wild beat,
It's like an artic pool drowning me every night, falling asleep.
These covers never kept me warm...
Realization, was when I didn't have you beside me.
I was never safe from the dark or the ones I thought I knew...
But the thought of falling asleep with you consumes me into tranquility.
There are things you probably didn't know and there are things you probably never will.
I just want you to know, that you've been the first real hope for me.
Caring has never been this challenging in the depths.
And I never smiled so long since I was very young...
You bring back many old memories;
A reminder I'm stronger than I think.
And I think, I think I'm loving you more every day.
These bones have started to creek with the weight of the many things
I thought I could only dream.
You've somehow found a place within my many scarred and re-scarred seams.
I'm really feeling quite safe with you in such a hidden place.
But there's a breeze where you have gone,
I'm laying here shivering from the space.
Too much openness invites these faded memories that haunt me from the very day.
You have brought with your force my relived childhood memories...
Those repeated episodes of my favorite shows don't hurt as bad when they end
Because I know that I have you waiting by,
some day, new ones will begin.