Falling to Pieces

I want to cry,
Bawl in fact,
But I can't,
So I,
Grit my teeth,
Take the bullet,
Stand up tall,
However small,
I feel inside,
I have to face it,
Head on,
On my own,
Once again,
But I'll do it,
No matter,
How much,
I just want to,
Give up,
Throw in the towel,
To these insecurities,
That spin through my head,
Spinning a web of fear,
Through my mind,
Maybe one day,
I won't have to try so hard,
To smile,
But it's not today,
So hopefully tomorrow,
Or maybe the next day,
Could take months,
But I'll be standing strong,
Through the haul,
No matter how much,
I want to fall....