All Along

It’s a little bit funny.
How the world can be so peaceful
And so horrible at the same time.
But the world isn’t really the world,
It’s more like the madness inside your head.
You left without a word, a glance,
A murmur of hope.
And for once I’m not sad. Not angry.
Not surprised.
Because I’ve been wondering
How long it would take for you.
To realize that I’m just as broken
As I was three years ago.
That I’m not better.
And that I wish for darkness.
I don’t deserve the light.
It’s a little bit funny,
That I am how I am.
Since it knew it would happen all along.