Why Don't I Go?

Before I close my eyes,
The drum roll turns to sighs.
And all I can say is, “Unreal.”
Hypocrites despised,
Weep and scream crooked lies.
Don’t paint that picture about me.
I won’t be here forever.
So why don’t I end forever now?
Even though my mind is ready,
It’s not something my heart allows.

“Oh, I’m gonna need you…”
Right, I’ll sit around and wait for that.
“Oh, I believe you…”
Says the cold knife in my back.
“Don’t do it, you’re too perfect…”
Why don’t you tell the mirror that?
“I love you, now and always…”
That’s a cold-hearted trap.

Before the light disappears,
The laughter turns to tears.
And all I can say is, “Untrue.”
They care, oh they care.
To know my little fears.
Don’t think I don’t know you.
I won’t be here all your life.
Why don’t I go right here, right now?
Even though my hands are tight,
It’s not something my heart allows.