Bitter Termination

listen to the sound of my heartbeat dulling,
and know that it's your fault.
hear the last few breaths i have slipping from my lungs,
and know that it's your fault.
know that every waking moment i spend on this earth in agony
it's all your fault.
keep walking away and never look back
because you'll never get me back

you told me you were going to stay
"forever and a day.
i will never go away."
your promises kept me going,
you were all that i had left.
and you walked away screaming to me
"I've no regrets of leaving you.
I've no regrets of breaking you
down to nothing.
you never really meant much to me
at all- its all your fault"

listen to the sound of my heartbeat dulling,
and know that it's your fault.
hear the last few breaths i have slipping from my lungs,
and know that it's your fault.
know that every waking moment i spend on this earth in agony
it's all your fault.
keep walking away and never look back
because you'll never get me back

i gave in to my urges
fed the razor,
let him have his way.
and i stood watching
through a mirror
as self depression
devoured me and had his wretched ways.
as i stood-i watched
and i had no control
as i slit my wrists and popped those pills
trying to find an escape- but i took all the wrong ways out.

listen to the sound of my heartbeat dulling,
and know that it's your fault.
hear the last few breaths i have slipping from my lungs,
and know that it's your fault.
know that every waking moment i spend on this earth in agony
it's all your fault.
keep walking away and never look back
because you'll never get me back

i slowed my heartbeat,
surrendering to death himself.
i let my breath escape me,
feeling as though there were nothing else in my soul to recover.
it was hell just to open up my eyes and see . . .

you weren't the best of me,
i can do things you cant believe
i'm all the things you will never see twice
i'm one of a kind,
ill blow your mind,
ill get back up and never look behind me.

listen to the sound of my heartbeat dulling,
and know that it's your fault.
hear the last few breaths i have slipping from my lungs,
and know that it's your fault.
know that every waking moment i spend on this earth in agony
it's all your fault.
keep walking away and never look back
because you'll never get me back.

like fading into a blizzard i disappear right before your eyes.

with a heart as pure as crystal
there is a lust for destruction
lurking deep inside
may all your darkest dreams come true
but dear, please remember
that your nightmares are dreams too