Why Do You Do This to Me?

Why do you do this to me?
Can't you just leave me be?
So many memories haunt my head.
Its unbearable.

Better to have loved and lost,
than never loved at all
That's a fucking lie.
This is torture.

Is this what it feels like to be in love?
If it is, it sucks.
You left alone and bleeding.
and somehow this hearts still beating.

You'd abandon your "One true love"
What happened to "until stars die"?
You fucking degenerate fuck.
You filthy piece of shit.

I want to hate you so much,
but I remember all those days.
Days when you were sweet and kind.
My knight in shining armor.

You let me see the light,
then left me alone in the dark.
Do you see what you've done?
Do you even feel guilty?

Its so easy to write all these words down,
but I can't say them to your face.
You're killing me inside,
You show no mercy.

You know what you do to me,
as much as I try to deny it.
Lie through my teeth,
saying I don't want you.

Why do you let me come back?
Let me crawl under your sheets.
You let me believe we'll be okay.
Why do you do this to me?

You cause me so much anger,
so much hate.
I use to be so numb,
and now I feel everything.

What have you done to me?
This pressure on my chest.
You're suffocating me.
I can't breathe anymore.

I'm dying slowly,
but I'm already dead.
I don't understand.

Why do you do this to me?