Playing Poker With the Devil

He says lets play our game
and i say deal
He tells me to push
when i say just stay
He tells them to fall
when i tell them to not let go
He calls it a bluff
When i say look away
He tells them its a lie
And i say its the truth
He tells them they will lose
And i say you will succeed
He says hes all in
i say count your cards again.....
he says its time to listen
i say you have my attention
he says i will suffer
and i say when
he says where is she now?
i sit in silence waiting for a sound
he says you know you feel it
and my anger starts to go
he says your alone kid
and i see no one
he says open your eyes
and i see darkness and blood
he says shes a lie
and i look with hate
he says your stronger then this
and i crinch my fist
he says your MY child
and i start to bow
he says listen to the pain
and i start to cry
he says listen to the scars
and i feel betrayed
he says listen to his words
and i am confused
he starts to laugh
and you can see my tears
he says hes right
and i realize what i really am and fear
he says she is playing you
and i start to stand....
he says come back to me
as i watch her sleep
he says leave before you get hurt
and i watch her breath
he says shes a lie
but i can hear her heart beat
he says this is just a nightmare
and i start to scream
He says deal your cards
I say im all in
He says so i won
and i say..devil, you should of called a bluff
I say im done playing now i finally won
and he screams come back
and i say i cant im not your son
i say shes been waiting to long
he screams for what
i smile at him with my bright eyes and beating heart
And i say for me.
And as i sit there looking at the mirror with the cards in my hands
i realize i was always the dealer..and it was always my game.