Suicide Note
I'm barely hanging on,
By the time you're reading this I'll already be gone.
I'm searching the sky for a reason to live,
I've been doing this for far too long.
I'll never know what led me down that path,
What made me lose my grasp;
I can't hold on.
The thoughts are always there, the voices never leave
They consume me, control me, leave me with nothing.
I'm scarred, I'm numb, I'm lifeless, dull
I'm drowned in the deep and I'm losing control.
Someone call an ambulance, I got wounds to attend
Someone call an exorcist and help me kill this curse
The voices won't stop, I think I'm losing my mind;
I can't live with myself anymore, want it all to end;
Can't stand the view in the mirror,
The fat, the ugliness, the dead beating in my chest
I'm living but I'm not alive.
I'm sleeping but I'm not asleep.
I'm caring but nobody cares,
Nobody ever did.
I'm better off dead, no one will miss me.
Put a gun to my head,
Stand on the ledge,
Put the steel to my wrist,
Lost the breath in my chest.
Dragging it down, over and over, again and again
Watching the crimson emerge, telling me I'm still alive
But I don't want this anymore, want it over and done with,
Want it to end.
Going deeper with each cut, hissing, flinching,
Relaxing.
How do you know how deep to go before it's real?
Well, this is real, this is the end.
It's over, I'm free.
The voices are gone, the thoughts disappeared.
Can I still get into heaven after I killed myself?
By the time you're reading this I'll already be gone.
I'm searching the sky for a reason to live,
I've been doing this for far too long.
I'll never know what led me down that path,
What made me lose my grasp;
I can't hold on.
The thoughts are always there, the voices never leave
They consume me, control me, leave me with nothing.
I'm scarred, I'm numb, I'm lifeless, dull
I'm drowned in the deep and I'm losing control.
Someone call an ambulance, I got wounds to attend
Someone call an exorcist and help me kill this curse
The voices won't stop, I think I'm losing my mind;
I can't live with myself anymore, want it all to end;
Can't stand the view in the mirror,
The fat, the ugliness, the dead beating in my chest
I'm living but I'm not alive.
I'm sleeping but I'm not asleep.
I'm caring but nobody cares,
Nobody ever did.
I'm better off dead, no one will miss me.
Put a gun to my head,
Stand on the ledge,
Put the steel to my wrist,
Lost the breath in my chest.
Dragging it down, over and over, again and again
Watching the crimson emerge, telling me I'm still alive
But I don't want this anymore, want it over and done with,
Want it to end.
Going deeper with each cut, hissing, flinching,
Relaxing.
How do you know how deep to go before it's real?
Well, this is real, this is the end.
It's over, I'm free.
The voices are gone, the thoughts disappeared.
Can I still get into heaven after I killed myself?
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We had to write a poem for English class using lyrics from songs that we like. This is what I came up with. I'm not suicidal, but if I were to kill myself, my suicide note would probably look like this.
However I definitely do not want you to kill yourself!!! If you have any problems and you need to talk, I'm here.
You can also message me on tumblr, my url is carl-the-unicorn.tumblr.com
Stay strong!
Love,
Mimi x
PS: I don't know much about poetry and I had some trouble deciding what kind of poem this is. If it's wrong, please tell me so I can fix it!