You Will Never Win

The moment you let go..
the feeling of someone sticking a needle in your heart
turning into someone pulling hard to dislocate your whole world
as if someone squished it into paper ball and threw it away..
Crushing everything you have dreamt of for you.. for them..

Nights turn into mornings
sleep deprived..
you fight to wipe up the tears with a smile.
harder the first day
easier the second
you try to seem strong as you relocate your life..
but it doesn't stop them
they keep pushing hard
the strike at your friends
they push at your heart
like anything could get worst
you hear their name
and they say I don't love you
ever again.

But a light unites and hope immerges
The new feeling of California and the beach
a light hope of a new career path
a job of a girl who smiles brighter
and pushes you up instead of down..
but you push them away for now
with "I cant's" and "I don't thinks"
because your heart still is trying to bleed.
But you move on forward
one foot after another
Doing your dreams and you sink
some mornings you cry
some afternoons you hurt
but you hide it behind a smile
a wall
so you can push forward in order to be something
to be the girl who proved the world wrong..
So someday you can come back and say I didn't let her win..
I will never let her win.