Defence

They ask how can I ever forget it.
I can't.
The fear lives with me every day,
My body trembles when I just try to sit.
My fingertips dance along the abused skin,
My mind remembers every single hit.
I forgave you,
When you so innocently said:
"It will never happen again."
My mind tells me:
That's it.
Just go already.
My body remembers every bruise,
The marks of your hands on my arms,
How in those bruises your hands fit.
Someone,
Please help me.
I have no defence.
And I have had enough of this shit!